"I never thought of myself as an underachiever, but that's what I am right now."

-from a YM conversation I had with Lia couple of days ago


I took some time to think where I'm headed: what my goals are, when do I plan to achieve them, and how am I going to get there. Where I am now is definitely not part of the plan I made in 2005. It breaks my heart that 4 years have quickly passed and not much have changed. While people I know are getting either promoted at work or married, I am still the person I was almost four years ago and that sucks for someone like me who have made big plans out of life. I would often secretly blame myself for staying in the rut. For some time it felt endless, until I started realizing how much I have been blessed these past years even without getting the MS diploma yet.

I would come to an MS hiatus from time to time probably because I wanted to do so much in life. Boards in 2005, shifted from Biochem to Sensors, PCASTRD scholarship, Chem Congresses, out of town trips, WYD experience, stronger relationship with the people around me, getting to know myself more... The last 4 years may have been rough on my studies, but I could tell you that my most meaningful life experiences happened in those hard 4 years. The long journey has definitely brought me to maturity. Getting the MS degree is the peak of it all.

I know this is a wake-up call and I am responding to it. No more excuses. Thank you, Kuya Jess.

I took this pic while I was on my way to the top of one of the Chocolate Hills' viewing deck in Bohol:

I can perfectly imagine the view from way up there. I clearly know what I want now. =)

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