I am probably at one of the lowest points in my life right now. Believe me, it just couldn't get any lower than this.

At one point, things were going so well. So nice, so smooth. Then in a heart beat, things got worse, everything was out of control. And now the situation I got in is so sticky that I couldn't pull myself out of it.

No, this is not the usual shitty angst on love. It's school. Thesis. Family. Scholarship. Money. Work. Material things. Relationships. Friends. Lab. Me. Honestly, I am just waiting for myself to snap any minute now.

Crap. I feel so low. I feel so broken.

I am leaving it to You, my Kuya Jess. If this is the only way to make me whole, then go ahead and break me more. And then slowly and gently put me back together again just the way you want me to be. I know you've got me in Your hands. I trust You.

Please don't give up on me as I am close to giving up on myself. You're the only thing that keeps me sane right now. I am a wreck without you.

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